Something for you

Hi bi..Actually I really am not happy.Like all the things I do for you.You don't really bother?!Isit cause I do not enough?Why haven't I been updating blog lately?Cause I know no matter how I update,will u actually read it?!I guess not.Yesterday,I was really angry.I was so upset.I was down.Depressed like I really just want to let some car bang me.I love you.I do.But the feeling you gave me yesterday was like,do you even care what I really want?!Or you just lazy to bother.Do u actually think that What you are giving me is enough?What I really want at that moment?Will u care?!For what I see with my own eyes is,you don't.I feel sad,to you is like 'so what?!'.Most important is like yourself first.Ah ying tell me,you listens to your gf more then your family,i told her,not really,maybe I am just like 10% more you listen to only.Actually,I really don't know how much efford you actually put on me.I don't like to always hear.i want to feel it,I want to see it with my own eyes to believe.I hate the word sorry.Cause everytime i hear it it hurts me!you know why?!Than baby know why it hurts?!Cause I know everytime you say finish sorry,end up,I am gonna face the same thing again.Yes you did change alot.Maybe not so pik cik already,I guess.people need time to change.I am giving time.I also want to change,but I keep telling you letting you,but i don't see anything,I will get fed up.I am So damn fed up.Like I've said before.I sad or angry,so what? You don't care.Cause you know you are more fierce then me.You know end up I will say sorry,I will still be there.I don't know why i say so much.I feel even if I type the whole page,its doesn't mean anything.Maybe you'll even be pik cik now.Hmm..